Because It's Better To Be Irrational With Me Than Rational With Someone Else
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I Made an Impact
Long time ago:
Between 8 and 11th grade, I dated (on and off) a musician. He dragged me to all his shows. He befriended my brother to become close to me. And I dealt with his constant highs. Sometime in 9th grade, he wrote me a song (not about me, but exclusively FOR me) and performed it at my birthday party that he threw for me. Now:
What I thought to be just an after-school hobby, turned into a full-time job. My then pot-head-musician boyfriend, became a quite known musician. He tours the country now. His music is a mix of Deftones/Radiohead/Sigur Ros. And now he (with his band) released a CD. On it, was a song he wrote for me years ago. On it, was a dedication to me. On it, were the thanks for helping him up and down the stairs, and for opening his locker when he was too high to function. __________________________________
High School:
I was friends with up and coming movie directors. I starred in their movies. I produced their movies. I promoted their movies.
I was thanked in all of the credits.
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Last Summer:
I met another musician, and he wrote a song especially for me. It was an apology song for something he did or said, I do not quite remember.
It will not be heard by any other or released as it was for my ears only. ___________________________________
Today:
My friend just finished a play based on my life.
This is a second play he wrote about me. The first one was about my crazy escapades. This one... well, I do not know exactly, as the only detail of this story that is known to me is that I am the main character and it is about me. ___________________________________
In general:
I do have a fan website with poems about me.
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CONCLUSION:
I am confused. How can I NOT be narcissistic if everybody else thinks that I am awesome enough to write songs/plays/poems/movies for?
And also... what have I done to influence these people so? All I ever did was be myself... and I lived in NJ.
9:47 p.m. - February 09, 2009
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