Because It's Better To Be Irrational With Me Than Rational With Someone Else ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This Vivid Metal Tasting Skinless Form That Is Me the skin. it itches. scratching and benadryl do not help. i can almost visualize thousands of tiny little bugs crawling on my hands, legs, and scalp. i can just see them digging underneath my skin and laying eggs. i can scratch until it bleeds, but the itchiness does not stop. it's the taste that suffers next. he orders coffee. i buy coffee, juice, and water. sleeping is not a problem until it becomes one. i down coffee like it's going out of style. and yet, me feeling fully awake is never truly accomplished. i dose off and dream vividly and colorfully and painfully. when awake, i hallucinate. bugs and creatures and crawlers and gross things. i wake up to the mountains of dead cadavers of bugs of sorts. i push them off to get out of bed. push them off on another mountain of decaying bodies of creatures. "i am losing my mind." i say to Stan. whatever whoever tells you, Stan and I are not dating. we are also not sleeping together. we just spend every possible free moment with each other. 11:18 p.m. - June 05, 2009 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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