Because It's Better To Be Irrational With Me Than Rational With Someone Else ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- He Was Drugged, But It Was Me Feeling The Effects It was the butterflies that woke me up first. It was subtle at first- their wing flutter, but when I woke up, I disturbed the masses of sleeping butterflies, and soon the room was filled with them. Fluttering their colorful wings! All the colors of the rainbow! And then I panicked, unless something glows, our eyes see only B&W in dark, something's wrong! Feeling my panic, the butterflies panicked and they immediately started dying and their dried and black carcasses started falling all over. Outside, crows were sitting on the tree and looking into my room. I hate birds. Oh I hate birds! My anxiety is increasing. The feeling of impending doom is increasing. Suddenly, the ceiling feels as if its too heavy and about to fall on me. I know it won't, but the possibility always remains. My skin itches, I feel bugs crawling; I know there's no real bugs, but I can almost see them. I see shapes and my brain immediately fills in the blanks for me. I get a text: " I force myself to sleep. I guess the second thing that woke me up, is the second wave of panic. Shapes were forming and dissolving. I am going to die, I announced. I get a text: " With his hand on my chest, he tells me things will be okay, it will pass. "It is just temporary. You will not die. Tomorrow, you will go to work. You will tell your doctor about this. And talk to someone about this." The third time I woke up was for work. I come back to work and there's coffee and a sandwich with a penny taped to it on my desk. And a note from Stan. " I got a text from my bf: " And while I was eating the sandwich (without licking the penny), I was recovering from my hallucinations and feelings of impending doom as my boyfriend who is 1000s miles away at the moment is recovering from being drugged. 9:29 p.m. - June 08, 2009 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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