Because It's Better To Be Irrational With Me Than Rational With Someone Else

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Ah...

This will totally go out of order, since I still didn't finish telling what I promised to tell before. But i think, I'm depressed. Sure I'm like the happiest person ever at work and I act rather happy at school, but at home I just want to cry.

At the same time, whenever I look at those chemistry books and whatever the hell else... I am afraid that maybe I don't like chemistry enough. Maybe later in time, I will hate being a chemist. Maybe my manager is right, maybe I am not cut out to be a chemist.

when I drive on a raised highway (like a bridge type, I don't know how you call that), sometimes I hope that the truck that drives next to me, hits me and I will drive off the ramp, and crash. I know, horrible, but at the same time, whenever that truck doesn't smash into me, I am glad.

Right now I'm listening to some sad song by Thom Yorke (fella from Radiohead) and it's so sad that I have tears in my eyes. That's strange, since I NEVER cry.

10:53 p.m. - July 12, 2006

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